Nothingh3re

Relationships are never a good idea, especially at this age. You always have heartbreak to look forward to. That's why I tried so desperately to push you away. There was nothing that could have come from this interaction, but it was just the thought of you. It was enough to make me grin like an idiot, and I hated it. Yet, I couldn't stand the thought of losing you. As I remained seated at the cafe we'd casually meet at for serious conversations, sipping at the dark coffee now grown cold, I realized that the result was always going to be the same. It was merely who'd be responsible for the shattered pieces and I decided it'd best if it were

Someone unexpectedly visited me, strangely home alone after my wisdom teeth removal, there was nothing to do but to invite him in. It's weird to see your first love walk to your door with a bouquet of flowers and apologize for breaking your heart. To see someone and still have your heart skip a beat as he nervously combed his fingers through his light toned hair, his clear blue eyes staring at my movements, cautious for my safety. It's also rather strange to find myself garner the strength to smile, forgive and remind him that I deserved better. That I didn't deserve to be abused the way I was and that in the end, when the relationship was o

So I just came out of surgery, a tympanoplasty to be correct. And I honestly never had such a bad response to surgery before. I mean, I was alone and the last thing I could remember was being wheeled into the surgery prep room in UCLA. The anesthesiologist looked me over and made sure everything was fine and saw me distraught over the whole situation. He asked me, "who would you wish to be standing here at your side, holding your hand if they could?" I lay there, drowsy and I mentioned my childhood best friend. But you see, that was the problem. I cannot remember most of my childhood because of him. You see, he died and having lost someone